Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Hibalag 2011

 

It’s when you’ve been there and back when you can rightfully judge a given event. When you’ve been audience, critic and organizer when your opinion matters more than the others’. Having said so, I can rightfully say, bad is bad. And Hibalag 2011, which is supposed to mean “coming-together” has sadly become a neat example of an “irony”.

Ironic, because people were scattered. There is no sense of collective community and thus, no coming together. Not only on an emotional plain that there is no sense of togetherness, also in the very physical. Heaven and earth had made it sure that perfection was out of the question. Bagyong Mina (Tropical Monsoon Mina) has plagued the whole city and Silliman. The Hibalag has been divided into two, east and west. Chasms of mud and icky stuff  forming between booths.

Just disastrous.

Sad.

The shows were sub-par. People didn’t have fun, and the hosts were just plain boring.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

The Meaning of “Perfect”

 

 

Perfection in perspective is relative to the beholder as much as beauty or plastic surgery quality is.  But to say this is stupid and immensely trivial that a blog about it is just ughh… boring.

You see, for me, perfection is a clearly cut concept. No relativity involved, it is quantifiable – measurable.

The meaning of perfection is simple: sacrifice for happiness.

 

Three and a half hours – that’s how long the bus ride is from Metro Cebu to the southern tip of the island, Santander. From this little municipality, a boat trip of 15 minutes is all it takes for one to hop from Cebu Island to Negros Island. A pedicab ride to Dumaguete then only consumes about 3 to 5 minutes. This very taxing routine is what I have to bear with if ever I wish to visit friend and frienemies in Dumsville – 4 to 5 hours I’m willing to spend on a bus of considerably questionable beginnings, driven by a man who has to be at least 60 with children spilling over any possible fluid available, old women coughing up a storm and bottles of “white flowers”, Efficascent oils, Omega, and Pau liniment, being opened and poured out from left o right.

But I still do it.

To sacrifice so much for something that makes me happy makes me perfect. You see, a perfect person is a person who fulfills the basic concept of life. To be happy. Whoever thought of it first, Aristotle or Socrates, or Confucius – one thing is sure and precise, LIFE. And life is led to achieve contentment and happiness. To achieve a perfect life or perfect person/a one should exert effort – a sacrifice. And when one achieves such feat, one has achieved perfection.

In the simplest terms, a perfect man is a man who is willing to hurt to be happy. The perfection of everything else thusly follows, sacrifice for happiness. That is perfection.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

The New Card Captors: Chapter 1

 

The Book, the Verse, and the Release

White blanketed the street. Another one of those Christmases, Caleb thought to himself. As a company van sped by spewing out the latest Christmas jingles designed to lure people to spend all their cash, he felt annoyance; Caleb new better than to succumb to this capitalist rush. He just hated it all – capitalism aside, Caleb really had it bad for the holidays, and to think it was more special this year. After five years, a stray northern wind has brought snow to their town on Christmas season – white Christmas.

He grew up in your typical suburb, with a very typical family. The mom stayed at home, the dad worked in the city – so plain, so cliché. He had no siblings, which, you can only speculate to be the reason for his very unfriendly disposition. He had no friends growing up, so to speak. Caleb lived his childhood all by his self. The early years of high school wasn't bad, he passed by barely noticed. You'd expect that a good looking boy like him – blond hair, crystal blue eyes, muscular physique and that beautiful smile – would have gotten him in the cool kid’s clique, the populars, but it didn't. This may be owed to the fact that he never really showed that smile of his, not to anyone. This amounted to him being friendless, except for a very queer boy, Jason. But more about him later.

He was very athletic. His mom was an ex gymnastics champion, so he had weekly trainings in his mother's ex-gym. He never competed though. He didn’t really see the point in letting himself be judged by people he didn't know. But he still trained because he sort of felt there was a purpose to it which he never seemed to figure.

At this point, it's obvious that Caleb was a boy who just kept to himself. Christmas being very social thusly repelled the boy. But he didn't know that this one Christmas would be one he'd actually like.

Our little tale starts a week before the big “2-5”. He was busy with a part time job he took up in an old antique book shop called Hiro's. It was owned by this Japanese man, Hiro, who came over and made the town home after the Second World War had subsided. He decided to work through the holidays to give him an excuse away from visiting cousins and the ominously cheery folk at home. Aside from making the job an alibi, he seriously loved books. The smell of old paper succumbing to its acid, he felt was one of the few things in the world that was real and couldn’t be purged by any darkness, any evil.

It happened when his boss, asked him to do overtime for a couple of hours to finish cleaning out the cellar since by the next day, a shipment of new books was to arrive, and they needed as much space as possible. Caleb didn't mind, in fact he jumped into his boss' request cause he knew his, very touchy feely, kiss-kissy, Aunt from Florida was arriving then.

Hiro left him few instructions; clean up. Lock up and not to touch anything he didn't have to, especially the old books. The then clock struck 7 – time to close shop. After flipping securely the we're-open-we're-close door sign, he then went down into the cellar. Duster in one hand and a a frilly pink apron in the other, he headed down with a sense of mission. But just when his foot touched the cellar floor, he felt a slight tremor which then grew quickly into a fully-fledged earthquake. The ground was shaking so hard that a lone shelf, which seemed to be an accident just waiting to happen, it being really packed with just these gigantic books, got knocked down. Great! More to clean-up, he thought. The shaking stopped for a bit so he continued to the mess which lay before him. But then the shaking apparently wasn't over just yet, and now it was a notch more intense. Fearing that the building would soon cave in, he took to hiding under an old oak desk. As soon as he ducked under the table though, the shaking stopped. He waited it out for a few more minutes, just to be safe from some stray aftershocks. When he finally supposed that it was over, he stood up into what seemed to be a promise of a long night. A shell of books splattered all over the floor, some old Japanese bowls shattered – it was a mess and he was to clean it up.

It took him about an hour before he could get the shelf up, the shattered bowls thrown out and the books piled up. The next task was to re-arrange the books on the shelves. Hiro was very particular with arrangements, and Caleb knew that he'd better leave the books on the floor than put them up in the wrong arrangement. So off he went into the tedious task of rearranging around 50 humungous books into the shelf. Each, by the way weighed like a tonne.

Caleb already mastered this art, having been made to arrange the books in the shop for far too many times, he felt was really necessary – Hiro was a slave driver. So he went about it in a breeze. A – B – C. It seemed the shelf was of Antique Japanese leather backs. Some were as thick as Oxford dictionaries and the others as small as pocket manga. D – J – K – S – T – X – Y – Z. Done. He looked around to make sure his task was really complete. But sure enough, he wasn't. One book was left unshelled, it laid there, under the desk where hid under. He barely noticed it when he was down there, but now it was quite hard to miss. It had this aura about it – like it was a person. It was as if it had eyes and was staring him down questioning his very existence. It was clearly a very queer book.

It had a light red, almost pinking color as its leather covering with very rustic trim of brown hide. On its face was a golden metal emboss of a sun. He immediately noticed the latch and lock it had, but it was unlocked. The lock had this engraved figure of a cat's face – fierce but calm at the same time. At the back of the book, a moon was plastered in the same ominous rustic style.

Curiosity got a hold of him so he turned the cover – which was something Hiro, he knew, wouldn't appreciate. The book didn't have any title on the sides where there should be one, so he felt he had a responsible to disobey Hiro at this point. On the fly-leaf it was written, “book that holds the powers of the stars, show your true form,” and at the very bottom edge of the page there scribbled in what seemed to be a girl's handwriting, “RELEASE”. He closed the book. It was nothing but an old girl's diary, he assumed.

He placed the book down on the table and went about figuring where it belonged. R- probably, maybe the title is release. Nope. Maybe it should go with Magic books, since it did say something about powers of, what was that? Oh, yes, stars. Maybe he missed something, he thought. So again, he turned the cover to the fly leaf. Nope, he wasn't wrong, he hadn't missed a thing. He decided to turn to the next page. But upon pulling out the leaf, something curious happened. It appeared to have returned to the exact same fly leaf – the first one, with the scribbles. He turned back to check if the pages were replicates and there wasn't any other page. It was as if he hadn't turned a page at all. Again and again, he turned the pages up until he felt he was halfway through the book, but still, he found himself at the very first page – on that queer fly-leaf. Caleb started freaking out. He dropped the book and started making his way up, out of the cellar. With each step getting faster, he finally got out into the shop and so he proceeded to lock up and go home.

He told no one of the queer incident that happened that night, not even to Mr. Hiro. After a week, the event had been diluted into a shady memory - it all seemed like it was merely a dream. He went about as usual. Still dodging his relatives, and still making the bookstore his fortress of solitude. He was apprehensive with returning to the shop, but then again, he knew he wouldn’t have to go back to the cellar, and if he was going to be made to do so, then he'll stop acting like a child and buck up.

Mr. Hiro was your typical expatriate. He still clung to his roots, still ordering in green tea which he prepares in his tradition kettle and set. He still has an accent which would hint to his obvious Japanese origin, that is, if his oriental look and the flag hung over the counter of the book shop didn't hint to that already. He was a quiet man. Like Caleb, he kept to himself, apart from the occasional scolding or bossing around. Caleb didn't mind though, Hiro was old, and was a soldier or something. He knew that it came with the background to be that uptight.

Routines, too, he thought came from him being in the navy, or was it army? From the very first week he started working there, he already noticed that Mr. Hiro stuck to a very precise, almost religious, sort of routine. Caleb would take his shift at the bookstore by 3:30 in the afternoon, and Hiro would be there brewing his green tea. Hiro, would then leave a note of chores for Caleb to finish at the end of the shift, apart from him manning the counter. The chores were very simplistic, usually just one or two, like sweep up or dust or rearrange the flowers. Things to keep Caleb busy if they had no customers. Then by exactly 5, Hiro would go up to his room above the store and turn on the radio for the afternoon news. He'd then start smoking away his cigarettes, the smoke of which creeps and drowns the bookstore. By 6, Hiro would then come down to serve Caleb some cookies or biscuits, and then he'd retire. Caleb knew that he was supposed to close shop by 7 without saying goodbye to Mr. Hiro.

The routine was followed strictly and not a single day was it ever missed. Even if the old man fell ill, he'd still leave the note, the radio would always turn on, cigarettes would always be lit and a plate of snacks would always be sent down to Caleb, either by making Caleb get it himself or by him deliberately getting out of bed to just serve Caleb with the platter. That's why when, Mr. Hiro didn't leave a note, didn't turn on the radio, didn't light the cigarette and didn't send snacks to Caleb, he knew something was very wrong. He stated to worry, so he toyed the idea of going up into his room and knock just to check up on his boss. By 7, he decided to do so. But no one answered him. Mr. Hiro was a very light sleeper. One time, when he was new to the job, he went up to say goodnight. The first squeak of the step woke Hiro up. So you couldn't blame Caleb if a plethora of possibilities flooded his very teenage mind. He knocked again. No one answered except for a creaking. The door was open. He fought the instinct to back off, Hiro had never let him in his room ever – he knew he'd get really pissed off. He knew he had to do it, though, so he tossed his senses out and he motioned to turn on the lights. No one was there. He slowly made his was to Mr. Hiro's bed. Empty. It seemed that it hasn’t been slept in for days now. Freshly formed cobwebs sheeting the sides of the headboard and house dust all over, was proof enough of that. On the bedside table, there were still butts of Mr. Hiro's cigarettes which proved that he did stay up there, only that he never slept in his own bed. Caleb estimated that it had been probably a week or less that Hiro had not been sleeping in his room.

If he really didn't sleep in as he usually does why did he make it seem to Caleb that he did? Just as usual he retired by six. If he had things to do, why did he have to wait till Caleb closed shop to do it? It was his store, and Caleb and him – they really didn’t have a relationship that would espouse some asking on Caleb's part and secrecy on Hiro's. So why?

Out of nowhere, it came to him. The book. He wasn't sure why it came to mind, but he was sure it was the only thing that has ever happened that was queer in the last few days. By then, his imagination took hold of him. He had pictured a sinister event, a villain, a victim. He took to the cellar that very instance. He had then started picturing Hiro, as a mad scientist, experimenting on that book – that pink book, or probably a sorcerer, offering a dog to his god to gain powers. Oh, the excitement in Caleb's face burned only making his assail on the cellar more intense than what is technically normal. With such vigor, he threw the cellar door open expecting a wondrous, gruesome, fantastical sight, only to be welcomed by nothing.

The cellar was empty. No villain, no victim, just the same old shelves and the same old books plus some new crates he figured were the new stocks that were delivered a few days ago. Having concluded that nothing was out of the ordinary and that simply, Mr. Hiro was just not in the shop, he slowly withdrew to the stairs. He was somewhat pleased that nothing did happen – he figured that if it were something out of a mystery novel, he wouldn't be able to reign himself into moving. But as this thought – this idea came across, he felt a glowing presence behind him. He slowly turned.

There it was, the pink book – floating, almost sneering at him. It had an effect on Caleb, consciously or unconsciously. The boy drew nearer to the apparition and upon clasping the item with both hands, the glowing stopped, and he snapped out of the semi-hypnoitc state he was in. He then mechanically opened the cover to the first page, and again, he read the words, only now, out loud.

“Book that holds the power of the stars, show your true form, RELEASE.”

And in a flash the pages of the book turned wildly to reveal that it was a case of odd looking cards. On top of the deck was an image of a woman in a flowy gown, with the title rusticly written at the foot of the image's frame. “Windy”. Caleb picked up the card and with a questioning tone, uttered the syllables which would change his life forever; “Win-Dy”.

At the very moment he uttered that word, a huge presence, a wind, like a swelling wave drowned the room. He fell to the floor. While he slept, a series of events triggered by what he had done, took place, and various forces asleep have now been awaken.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Bradford

I like the drama of the buildings. One before the other, such theatric potential. But untapped.

Science of the Ancients

 

The word element has now come to define matter at its atomic level. It is said to be made up of protons, neutrons and electrons. We have made all these scientific facts, with our highly specialized contraptions.

That’s why we conceive now the ancients as somewhat off as to their defining the elements into the following four, Earth, Wind, Water and Fire. But you have to ask, why then is this four-fold concept of the make up of the universe prevalent amongst advance and not so advance cultures in the ancient times? Cultures which didn’t have even the slightest connection or contact with each other.

Earth, Wind, Water and Fire.

We can reconcile the modern and ancient ideas into a unified concept of our universe. One thing’s for sure, the first three are clearly phases of matter; how they exist in the world. The last one, fire, clearly represents the other face of the universe, energy.

The universe as we know it is made up of four things, matter and energy, and time and space.

The ancients apparently have a keen sense of the first pair, but what about the other two?

In some cultures there is a fifth element. One with many names. Unlike the fundamental Earth, Wind, Water and Fire, whose identities and definitions remain constant in all  cultures, the fifth one is very elusive. The Chinese called it the Chi or life force, to some it is Spirit, to others, Sanity or Emotions, and to some Soul.

Although technically these things are different, they have a sort of coherence. Life is  flow. It has a start and an end. It has been considered the greatest measure of time. Definite. Precise. Real. And before it there is nothing and after it there is nothing. Space. Life  and its course clearly is Space and Time condensed into a more tangible form.

You see, the ancients got it all figured out. Our universe is made up of these elements. Earth, Wind, Water, Fire and Spirit. Could it be that their concepts of balance and interactions between these elements actually have its corresponding modern fundamentals?

Chi and psionic powers.

Will, soul and spirit.

Dark forces.

Unified existence.

What other things are there for us to discover?

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Heroes

Things change, but not people.

Season one of this show gave me goose bumps. Heroes was reminiscent of X-men, with lots less tights and 80’s hairdos and more humanity. It was this humanity that added layers into the fabric of what was expected to be just another supernatural-themed TV series. But as the show progressed into it’s later seasons, the quality had slowly shifted from something real-relatable, into something overly fantastical. When you dig a well, you’re supposed to stop when you get to the water. What heroes did, was it dug too deep trying desperately hard to keep it’s viewers who didn’t need keeping just yet. Heroes dug through the core and left the world, leaving all of us treading on an endless path.

Fortunately enough though, the opening line, which is incidentally taken from the series itself, holds true. The Heroes Universe changed for the worse, but at least, the people held steadfast through the drama and retained their lovability. I guess this is why they got to a respectable fourth season. The characterization of the different heroes and their own demons are what made the four seasons strong enough to make the show still something worth watching. Heroes, will be one of those series which will forever be considered as one of those “greats”.

 

I know this post on heroes is long overdue, but I recently bought the DVD of he 4th season, so yeah. Leave your comments.

Candles (Glee Version)

 

Season 2 Episode 16 – Regionals

Kurt and Blaine, Warblers Opening Duet

Originally by: Hey Monday

Kurt:

The power lines went out

And I am all alone

But I don’t really care at all

Not answering my phone

Blaine:

All the games you played

The promises you made

Couldn't finish what you started

Only darkness still remains

Kurt:

Lost sight, couldn't see

Both:

When it was you and me

Blow the candles out

Looks like a solo tonight

I’m beginning to see the light

Blow the candles out

Looks like a solo tonight

But i think I’ll be all right.

Both:

One day

You will wake up

With nothing but your sorry's

Blaine:

And someday, you will get back

Both:

Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out

Looks like a solo tonight

I’m beginning to see the light

Kurt:

Blow the candles out

Blaine:

(Candle's out)

Kurt:

Looks like a solo tonight

Blaine:

(Solo to-night)

Both:

But i think I’ll be all right

Revisiting the Boy: Mario Maurer

Some four years ago, I fell in love. He was beautiful. I have this type, you see. I like music, bandy guys. I also prefer guys with brown skin, black hair… you know, your typical Filipino boy. And this guy I fell for was just that. But he was in the closet at that time, right. So I was really in the pits. I was 16 so you can imagine how hormonal I was and thusly, how deep into this crush I was.

I’ve heard it said, that being different, in this case gay, would be easier if you had a sort of mentor – a “kuya” or an “ate” (older brother or sister). And so I did. I talked to this gay guy I met at one of the school clubs. I told him my piece – how I’m so in love but I don’t know how to act on it cause of the whole “in the closet thing”. It was more or less a two hour long monologue with which he replied to me with this knowing, satisfied grin. His only response besides his annoying facial expression was the title of this movie he supposedly loves and which supposedly very much applied to my situation – “The Love of Siam”, which starred two very cute thai teenage boys who played a brooding yet closeted couple. The actors, Witwisit and Mario Maurer.

Yes, that was when I first encountered the german-thai beauty of Mario Maurer. Way before he became mainstream, before he became this sex symbol even in the Philippines – I had made him my scapegoat. Even though I was supposed to use the movie as this trove of life lessons, I accidentally fell in love with Mario and had made him a diversion from my real life obsession with my crush. As funny as it may sound, yes, I used Mario. And regardless of how kinky it might sound, it ain’t that way – swear.

Now, I’m quite over him. But then, I did make this post. Right?

Anyways, I went through my photo stock the other day, and basically I saw his face again, those eyes, those perfect teeth and fell in love again.

So in an attempt to muster up the same emotions, the same rekindling to those of you who read my blog here are some pictures of the awesomeness of Mario Maurer.

 

 

(all pictures are from the web and their HYPERLINK identities are on the picture itself… click to proceed to mother site… I DO NOT OWN THE PICTURES)

Kangitngit



*** Kangitngit is Bisaya for darkness, but in this complex dialect it takes on various definitions with such vivid applications as to imagery. This poem of mine which is  a silly attempt at literature seeks to showcase the power of the word and the intricacies of the Bisaya language.


Samtang ginasubay nako kining dalan
Dalan nga ngitngit, dalan nga bala-an
Akong ginapangandoy nga magkita na ta
Maskin lang man sa kangitngit atong kalag mag-abot na
Sa kangingit gikawat akong pahiyom
Sa ngalan sa sapi,sa diyot, sa ilimnon
Ug sa mabugnawong kilid ako gipasagdan
Kangitngit, kahadlok, akong nasudlan
Ug ikaw gahulat sa eskina sa may mangga
Para kanako, nga abi nimo muabot pa
Ug karon akong subayon kining dalana
Padulong kanimo, maskin dili man ta magkita
Dawata akong gugma, kasing-kasing og pagkatawo
Sa kangitngit man lang pasaylo-a ko intawon
Samtang akong pagasubayn kining dalana
Hinaot atong kasingksaing mag-abot na.

TRANSLATION:
As I follow this road,
This dark and holy road,
I yearn that we finally meet.
Even in this nothingness our souls would finally meet.
My smile was stolen in the darkness.
In the name of money, of having, of liquor.
And in that cold damp corner I was left to wait.
Death, fear was what I have entered.
And you wait there at the curb, by the mango tree,
For me, whom you thought was still coming.
And now, I follow this path
To you, even though we shall never meet.
Receive my love, my heart, my soul.
Even just in the end, forgive me please.
While I follow this path,
I hope that our hearts finally meet.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

A New Me.

iv’e never been able to post picture of myself here, which for me is weird. Im excessively vain… so yeah… here we go…Snapshot_20110804_3

Yes… I am your typically Asiano… SmileSnapshot_20110804

And here’s one face forward… Smile

Shouting Out…

Hey… this is my first run with Windows Live Writer… it’s neater than having to bother with opening my Dashboard and seeing a lot of clutter…

News: To my followers, pls, leave comments so I can feel your presence… the only evidence of your being there is the stats,… anyway…

Also, I want to know what you guys think of me posting Fan Fiction of Sakura Card Captor?

 

So pls COMMENT…