My forever. (October 6, 2014)

Artemio Naonao,

Hi.

I'm writing this at the point in our relationship when for ever doesn't seem so far fetched. I'm writing this to remind you of how amazing you made me feel; how happy you have made me.

If by chance, our roads stop and we diverge from each other. For whatever reason there might be, I wan't you to read this and just try to remember how much I love you.

I love you like I've never loved anyone before. 

I love you as much as the sun loves this earth.

I love you relentlessly and unceasingly.

If I failed to tell you how much I love you, that's not because I don't or I've stopped loving you.

If I made a mistake and sought comfort in someone else it's not because I've lost sight on you.

If I falter, it's not because I wanted to. It's just because I'm stupid and weak and pathetic. I am insecure and a little coward. 

But I promise never to hurt you or ever make you feel unwanted. With all my strength I promise to love you.

And if by chance you fall out of love for me. I would like to tell you this. I will fight for you. I will fight for your love. I will not let all we have worked so hard for just go without me fighting - clawing to keep us together.

If you do lose it all for me, then I will patiently wait. I will wait until you remember that I am your forever, as you are mine.

I love you,

Marckey Cielo

Updates on the Inkmeister's Forlorn Life

In the risk of sounding hopeless and pathetic, I wish to narrate the comings and goings of the past few days of my existence.

As you are all aware, Geof dumped me. That was a really freaky moment. But then, I found someone who consciously allowed himself to be my scapegoat. This guy was good at making me feel special. But then a good friend made me realize I was not really ready for a relationship. So, I stopped whatever was between us and tried to move on.

Then there was the suicidal tendency. Of which I was saved by Jane. J See? At this point I realized I wasn’t the evil guy who society has made me out to be. She saved me. The girl who I broke, saved my life.

Then, Hailey came to my life. This boy has got it all. Killer wheels, manual clutch, 110 kph top speed and all the drama that comes with being a race bike. Hailey is my definition of true love.

After Hailey, came Skype guy who btw, is super sweet. Then there’s the official crush of the season, Mr. Older Guy Who Is Amazing At Everything He Does – let’s call him Jack (-of all trades).

And now, there’s Link. Link is a code name. Link from The Legend of Zelda? Ring any bells? He’s as cute and naïve as him. Like super cute. And this one is smart. But of course, I am sticking to the whole 1 year thing. I’m gonna wait for a full year before diving into the dating game again.

Wish me luck.

At this point, I’m most gushing over Link. The fact that we know each other a long time ago adds to the cute awkwardness that is our connection. Jack, well, there’s that kilig thing every single time he smiles at me. Link or Jack, it does not matter. I will be waiting for that one year.

Please, if you've been through the same things I have, leave a comment. Just like me, you'll get over it.

Under the Microscope: Ariella Arida

Is FIFTY really equal to GOLD?Let me take you on a series of reviews as to the more or less, controversial outcome of the Binibining Pilipinas: Gold Edition.First in my 6 part series, Ariella Arida. Let’s put her, under our microscopes, shall we?

UNDER THE MICROSCOPE: ARA ARIDA

Contextualization:

Ara Arida will be sent to the Miss Universe Pageant of this same year, slated to be sometime between September to November. So it is a must, thusly, to put into context the lady upon whom our hopes and dreams rest.

What is Ms. Universe, in the first place?

Ms. Universe is an old pageant which has always been ranked as the best in the world, in terms of production and more importantly, following. Prior to the drought which begun circa 2000, the Philippines had always been a powerhouse in this pageant. We have 2 crowns and a bunch of finalists to boast of. In more recent times, we have a 3-peat in placing in the top 5 of the pageant. Venus, with here ridonkulus (yes, im using this word – thanks Ted Mosby! J) body, Shamcey, with that megawatt smile and Janine with her stomp, reinstated the Pearl Archipelago into the Miss Universe hall of fame.

It’s safe to say we have sash powers now. And although this is no assurance, in fact, it’s scary even, we have a fighting chance in landing that elusive number one spot.

But mentioning the three girls, it does raise the question why we weren’t able to nab the crown.

Let’s review the queens we’ve had lately.

DAYANA – she started the high fashion trend that is steam rolling the pageant world. She isn’t your typical doll, in fact, she beat out Taliana who is just that. Why did she win then? Fierce is the word. Trump has realized he couldn’t use those sunshiny girls as much as he would want. Those charity balls and gala events only happen once or twice a month – not really reeking in the greens. What is more lucrative is the modelling scene, and Dayana fit the bill perfectly.

STEFANIA and XIMENA – These two girls are just plain and simple – gorgeous. Also very model-esque but more importantly, they have perfect faces. Ximena in particular has a face that sent the pageant world into a frenzy. Stefania has so much youth and vibrancy. Both girls are just beautiful.

LEILA – this girl is fresh – personified. No wonder why she beat out Oleysa and Shamcey! She has such a cover girl image that is just magnetic.

OLIVIA – The lady with the perfect face. Another straight forward beauty. Olivia blew away the competition with her relaxed wit. Her smile and huge eyes are big pluses too.

Let’s now take ARA and see if she matches the apparent requirements of being a Ms. Universe.

 

FACE:

The bad: I’m not that big a fan of her eye-bags. But that’s easy to conceal. The smile is at times cold. I feel like she just overdoes the whole fierce thing. She tends to give off a very cold persona. The face isn’t your typical beauty. The nose needs a little work.

The good: Those eyes! Those huge seductive eyes are her major selling points. She can just stare at you and you’d melt. In general, her face has some symmetry. Her neck is gorgeous. There’s something about the shape of her face that is to me very appealing.

BODY:

The bad: Her curves aren’t very obvious. When she does her poses, her muscles tense too much and they’d seem bulging. This is something she has to work on.

The good: Right now, she doesn’t have obvious body fat. She is quite toned. She’s not short, but not tall either. Just the right Miss Universe height.

PERSONALITY:

I have friends in the pageant circuit who know her. They were pretty excited when she won, and they were sending her love. Apparently, she’s a really nice girl. Some would say, quite fun to be with. She seems to me very determined too.

WIT:

The bad: She gets nervous easy. And it really shows.

The good: She still spews very sane remarks even when she’s nervous.

WALK:

YES. YES. YES. I love her walk! Perfection!

To me, Ms. Ara is a shoo-in in the top15. But she needs a lot of work with her packaging, projection, confidence to really get to the crown.

I’m giving Ara, right now with what she has, a 85% chance at nabbing the crown.

Under the Microscope: The Binibini

Let’s ask ourselves the question – what is a BINIBINI?

And by “binibini” I mean getting into that elusive club of five, four of which entitles you to represent the country in international pageants.

Taken from the most recent editions of the pageant, I dare to give you these criteria on being a BINIBINI.

1. Before picking favourites, ask if a particular girl is stunning. IS SHE STUNNING? Does she have a presence that drops your jaws? It isn’t about plain beauty, but it’s the totality of her bearing, charm and ability to command attention to her even when not trying. Take a look at Shamcey and Venus, in their respective pageant nights, they were clear standouts who just draws your attention.
2.  A binibini has to have a certain attitude. IS SHE A ‘rampadora’? Being stunning is not enough, especially if there are 20 others who meet her level, aesthetically. But a true binibini won’t just stand in a corner. She causes a scene. She gives an extra wink. She tosses her head and giggles a little. She makes the show about her. She makes herself seem important. She is the main event. Venus Raj, Krista Kleiner and Nicole Schmidt are the best examples for this criterion!
3.  The two other criteria are important on stage. But how about before the curtains rise? IS SHE LIKEABLE? Organizers – it is all about them. If they don’t like you because you’re too much of a primadonna, then be ready to wear the worst sponsored outfits, and not be invited to marketing affairs. Exposure to media, which in turn will help you make a name and will help you get noticed by the judges, prior to the event, is dependent on whether or not, press and organizers like having you around them. Shamcey, Janine, Diane Necio, Ali Forbes, Czarina – all women who are known to be sweet and easy to deal with.
4.  Wit! It isn’t about having the best answers, but it’s about having them delivered in a confident, couldn’t-care-less way, which shows confidence and intelligence. BPCI isn’t strict on this criterion (i.e Janina San Miguel) but lately, they’ve been keen on sending confident speakers. Shamcey, Janine, Nicole, Czarina, Krista had really amazing answers and they bagged crowns.

Apparently, ARA and BEA for me got all four in the bag. MUTYA clearly didn’t have no.4, CINDY wasn’t no.2 enough and PIA well that styling really made her look boring. I love our set of winners this year and I will give each, my fullest support.